I miss you sweetheart. Each and everyday. Today would have been 9 years, yet it seems like yesterday. Tears falling, burning my face. I found love again, like you told me to. But my love for you stays strong. Each anniversary, birthday, every day, I think of you. Most days it warms me. Today it steals my air. I miss your laugh, your smile, your heart.

I love you.

Safely Home

I want to thank all of you that have taken this journey with us. Yesterdays Celebration was incredible. Such an amazing turnout for an amazing woman. Thank you all for coming and for those that were unable to attend, your love and support was still felt.

What else could I possibly say that all of us do not know? Nothing. As I talked to you all yesterday and heard your stories and saw your expressions as you spoke of Jilly, I know that I am not the only one who gets it....

JILL IS SPECIAL.

I will always love her and miss her. She was the best person I have ever had the privilege of knowing, let alone that taught me what love is about. She loved me...not just me...she LOVED like no one I have ever known....aside from our Lord.

In closing I want to share something that was in a card I received yesterday and I think it says it well:

Safely Home

I am in Heaven, dear ones;
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever
Safely home in Heaven at last.

Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! but Jesus' love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.

And he came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still:
try to look beyond earths shadows,
Pray to trust our Fathers will.

There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remaineth -
You shall rest in Jesus' land

When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come!

God bless.

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INFO on Celebration Of Life for Jill

As most of you all know, Jill and I firmly believe in our Lord, Jesus Christ and that although so much pain and anguish is being felt by all of us, this is also a time to rejoice. She is now free... love, comfort, and peace beyond our understanding. Jill was very clear that she wants us to celebrate her life and her going home. We will be having a Celebration of Life Party for Jill on May 19th 2009. All are invited. The info is posted below.

As most of you know, Jill was an extremely giving and unselfish lady. She always gave never expecting anything in return just happy to be. I'm not sure of my postings so I might be repeating myself, but, Jill has given her body to USCD School of Medicine for teaching purposes. In addition, her eyes will be going to the San Diego Eye Bank, where 2 people will be able to regain site thanks to Jill.

I have been so blessed to be allowed to have her as my Wife and Best Friend.

CELEBRATION OF LIFE PARTY FOR:

JILL TODD

TUESDAY, MAY 19TH, 2009 @ 5PM

1569 FAIR VALLEY RD.
EL CAJON, CA 92090

THIS IS A CELEBRATION.... and Jill requested that we dress in Hawaiian Shirts, have joyous music, and laugh.

If you are able to it would be appreciated if some finger style foods can be brought.

Any questions regarding the Celebration of Life please contact:

Tabbie Weidetz
619-254-4346

Gone Home

Jill has gone to be with our Lord, Jesus Christ in heaven at 6:55pm.

Thank you for your love and support.

God bless.

Thank you.

I just wanted to say thank you all for the support in saying that I have not failed Jill. Although I still have feelings of guilt that I am sure in time will subside, I know this is the best thing for my Angel. I just wanted you all to know that I am ok and in Gods hands. Thank you for all the emails and texts especially this mornings. If so many believe that I did my best, then I should realize that and get over myself. May God continue to bless us each and everyday just knowing that He has her in His hands.

Unable to provide comfort care.

Despite all my efforts, I could not care for Jill at home anymore.. I have had plenty of help but it was not enough for her comfort and care during these last few days. She was unable to take the medications that controlled the vomiting and was continuously vomiting and extremely restless. It breaks my heart to not have her here. I promised her I would keep her home until she went to be with our Lord. I have failed. Everyone tells me this was the right thing to do and it killed me to see her in such a way. But, I promised her. The first promise I broke to her was in the beginning of this ailment and she was having feelings of falling. I promised her I wouldn't let her fall and she did. My second broken promise to her was that she could stay home and now she will spend the last of her time in a hospital.

I am sorry.